This obsession with the mask started 5 years ago…
At first, it was just the realization that when I wore stage make-up in my plays, my new blemishes disappeared. With that, I found that I liked the look and the feeling of the mask much better. I looked forward to putting make-up on for my plays. Pretty soon, I began wearing the make-up a couple of times a week…then everyday…and then I couldn’t stop.
There isn’t anything particularly wrong with make-up, but the way that it consumed me wasn’t healthy because it brought me farther away from God, and His design for beauty. Last summer, I found myself refusing to swim, and when I did I had to rush to a mirror and put on more make-up. I always had to carry foundation with me in my purse, and I hated for people to see me without make-up. Wearing the mask distorted my view on beauty, and made me unhappy.
When I realized this, I wanted to change but I felt that I couldn’t. The mask had taken over so much that I didn’t even know where to begin. Finally, I said a prayer to God, and He told me that He would not take away my blemishes and zits until I saw myself as beautiful the way I was. I had to accept myself, and go out uncovered. I had to strip my mask, and delight in the true face that He had given me.
And today I did that. I left the mask and all its insecurities behind, and delighted in the love and confidence of God. I wore no mask.
I realized finally, that life without the mask is happier and freer. I did not have to worry about make up lines or smearing foundation on my white shirt. I didn’t have to remember to bring make-up along in my purse when I went out, and I could only smile when water dripped onto my chin during my dentist appointment. And when I looked in the mirror, I appreciated the beauty that God has given me even more. I found freedom, confidence, and beauty without the mask.
Charm is deceptive and beauty is vain, but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised.
– Proverbs 31:30
I challenge you to think of your insecurities and the ways that you try to hide them. Ask God for help, and persevere in finding ways to overcome the obstacles that keep you from full delight in Him.
- What Is Beautiful? (elizabethsjourneyhome.wordpress.com)