I always think I know what is best for me, and so I make plans. For instance, when I was little I planned out exactly how and when my non-believing family members would come to Christ. Now, the dates have passed and not one of them has changed (to my knowledge). All I can say is, so much for my plan.
I’ve gone through my life with other moments like that. I have spent time imagining out exactly what I want to happen, only to see it crumble away. Sometimes I still don’t understand why things happened the way they did. I don’t always understand why the closest of friends seem to hurt me the most, or my dear grandmother had to die or why I had to go through a period of darkness. I never planned these things.
As I speak, there are a bunch of things I’m unsure about, too. I don’t know if the friends I’ve just met will last. I’m not sure if the feelings that I have for people and interests will remain. I don’t know if I’ll go to Mexico again next summer or ever. I’m not sure who I’ll lose this year and how I’ll be disappointed. I can’t plan my future.
But then, the prevailing Voice shouts above the clouds and confusion in my mind. He says, “Trust me, Elizabeth. Just trust and you will be fine.” I’m still scared, but suddenly a beautiful peace fills my soul and I know that even though my hopes have been dashed and I don’t know what the future will bring, my life is not in vain. I can’t plan my future, but He can.
The days ahead of me may be long or short, filled with sadness or joy. I don’t know what is next or where I’m going, but I am not going to worry or be afraid. No, I am going to trust…in the One that knows all things. I am putting my faith in the Love that gave me life. I’ll listen for the Voice and follow His commands. I’m going to toss the plan and trust in Him, because He knows all, and He knows best.
As you may have guessed, I’m back from my trip! I’m sorry to have missed your posts but I promise to start checking again ASAP. I hope you enjoy the following posts which were inspired by what God taught me during my time away.