I’m walking on a road right now. I know where it is leading me but I don’t understand how I’ll get there. I’ve sometimes thought that I knew the right way for me but my ideas never happened like that. No, He always had other plans for me. Often, they were hard, though in the end I was filled with joy and happiness. But still, the road there was a challenge.
Next week, I’m starting a new school year. It’ll be my last in the “safe” confines of home before I go off to university. Strangely enough, I’m more scared about the following months than the years after graduation. I guess that’s because I know that the road home isn’t always straight, clear, and fun. I’ve experienced too much grief and pain to convince me of that lie anymore. Yes, the road is always a challenge.
Sometimes, I lie in bed and wonder what this school year will bring. Will someone else die? Will I be hurt again? Will my insecurities return? Will sadness, disappointment, and down feelings mar my road? Because I know that the road of life is challenging.
But then I remember that I am a fool to think these thoughts. Yes, a fool. I may not know what is to become of me on the road ahead, but I know what I grew to be on the road left behind. And although I remember that that person was hard to become, I believe that she will not be shaken from what He has given her. God has been faithful to me. He has taken me from the darkness and into the light. Why should I worry when He has more than proven His love and protection over me? The road ahead will be a challenge, but He will fight the battle for me.
Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?
Matthew 6: 25 – 27