“You’re a Christian?” she asked, eyes wide. She was thoroughly surprised.
“Yes,” I nodded. We’d recently met at an acting camp and I’d told her about my trip to Mexico which led to the fact that I was a Christian.
“Sorry, I’m not religious at all,” she apologized.
“That’s ok,” I replied. “Did I not seem like a Christian?” I wondered if it was bad that I hadn’t come across as a Christian to her.
“No, not at all. The only Christians I know are really judgemental.”
Sometimes I wonder why I am a Christian. Why I go to church. Why I do the things I do. Because sometimes being a Christian seems like everything it’s not supposed to be.
I never wonder why I love God. I don’t have perfect faith, but I always know that He is worthy. I love Him and He loves me. God is good. He is right, beautiful, and pure. The problem is that church is not always the same.
The simple truth is that the church is made up of a group of people. They’re sinful humans who are capable of hurting feelings and making mistakes. And sometimes, despite good intentions, church is a place where people are deeply, severely hurt.
But people don’t get it. I mean, it’s church for crying out loud! How could a building with a sign that says “Everyone Welcome” and a group that gives out free juice every Sunday have the ability to hurt? What could be so unloving about that? The truth is, there is a lot that the church does and is doing to hurt people.
Yes, church is full of wonderful and loving people with good intentions. The church attempts to welcome people with open arms. But sometimes, intentions are twisted. Sometimes, lies are told, people are judged, and the arms of love are withheld. It’s time Christians acknowledged that the church is far from perfect.
My friend at acting camp was absolutely right when she said that Christians are judgemental. We are judgemental and I can certainly understand why she has run from religion. I would have run myself if it weren’t for grace.
For there is a God who is everything that the church is not. He redeems us with His grace every time we mess up. He is the one we should look to for the perfection we seek and the love that we crave. God is what being a Christian should be about.
There is a lot on my heart right now. I don’t know how to share it all, but I know that I must. I’m going to be talking about the church and the hurt that it causes when I can. I’ll still be posting on other topics… this is just a new one I’d like to introduce. I think it will be controversial, heavy, and hard, but I’m willing to take the risk.